That famous NICU roller-coaster had us crashing downwards again today, without anything really bad actually happening.
Yesterday was obviously a major high point of the journey so far. We'd reached such a big milestone, that we must have just relaxed a little too much subconsciously. The nervous emotion and adrenaline had been keeping us going for so long; then suddenly it kind of stopped, and it just dawned on us again where we are and what is actually happening.
It hasn't helped that Stanley was starting to have more bradycardias (stopping breathing, heart rate dropping etc) yesterday, so much so that he's gone back onto his CPAP machine overnight. He's probably just tired after five days off, or it could be a sign of a slight infection. He's been started on anti-biotics anyway, just in case. Oh, and he's got a few hernias as well, which will probably need an operation.
Our babies have come so far, but there is still such a long way to go. We both just feel completely drained again; which is a feeling we're getting used to, but it seems to be worse than ever right now. We don't really have a choice though, so just need to keep strong like Willow and Stanley are demonstrating so nicely.
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